Hit In the Chest with A Big Brick

Yes, that's how it felt when he told me the news. Not that I have not been pre-warned. Not that we don't talk about it, and what we would and should do if it happens. But until it is official, I guess I don't take it seriously enough. Perhaps that's just my natural reaction to protect myself from the pain, or I guess to just delay the pain.

Now pain comes like rain, tropical rain, gushing down hard, fast and furious. Pain in the heart.

And yes, he will be going away, at least for two years. And what do I do for the period?

Mourn and wear black? Hide the pain and continue? Move too?

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Laying in the after glow
I only want to learn what you know
But now you’re leaving
How many hearts must you break?
How many calls must I make?
But now you’re leaving
In this world all that I choose has come unbearable
But love is in your touch
Oh it’s killing me so much
Only when you leave
I’ll need to love you
And when the action has all gone
I’m just a little fool enough to need you
Fool enough too long
Only when you leave, you’ll leave in danger
Oh I’ll make sure that you pay
So give a little passion to a stranger
And take this soul away
I only want to make this things last
So how could this have gone so fast
And now you’re leaving
How many times must I learn
It’ s only when you’ve gone that I burn
And now you’re leaving
In the end, all that I left has come unbearable
It’s hard to change your mind,
So leave it all behind
Only when you leave
I’ll need to love you
And when the action has all gone
I’m just a little fool enough to need you
Fool enough to long
Only when you leave, you’ll leave in danger
Oh I’ll make sure that you pay
So give a little passion to a stranger
And take this soul away

Spandau Ballet - Only When You Leave